Anybody Out There?

So I tried to remain cool all day while at work, but in the back of my mind I kept wondering if I had received a response to my email yet. Somehow I managed to restrain myself from checking my email account all day.

That’s not really a comment on how good of a worker I am though, but rather that I was actually scared of finding an email…good or bad.

If they were interested, then I had to figure out my next step. If they were disinterested, then it would be kind of a blow to my confidence.

So I distracted myself with work and told myself I didn’t have time to check my email. And after work I headed downtown to a baseball game and told myself that I would just sleep on it and check in the morning.

Halfway through the game, I changed my mind and my ways. See, one of my worst habits has always been avoiding following up on things that I’m not sure the outcome of. But I can’t afford to do that anymore.

If I’m running a business, I need to stay on top of my communication. I mean how would it look if I wait a week to read and respond to my emails?

So I held my breath and checked my email…and actually breathed a sigh of relief when there was no email response at all.

Weird reaction?

I know it sounds strange, but for me it means I can still dream about what their response will be.

I guess sometimes the unknown can be comforting.

Leading Causes of Why I Put EVERYTHING Off

In trying to get to the root of my procrastination, I’ve come up with the top five reasons why I tend to put crap off:

1. Laziness – yup, I put this one at the top of my list because it’s a biggie. It’s also fairly self-explanatory.

2. Avoidance – sometimes it just seems easier to avoid things and have them eventually disappear from the To Do list.

3. Indecisiveness – I have a long list of things I want to see and do but I abhor planning them because they involve so many decisions: when to go, what time, who to invite, how to get there, what to do when we get there, etc.

4. Lack of motivation – I know plenty of people (including my boyfriend) who are able to self motivate enough to work from home. I’m hoping one day to acquire that ability through osmosis.

5. Fear – I have the normal fears of spiders and whatnot, but I also have a fear of success. This might sound crazy, but success comes with a lot of change and responsibility…both of which I tend to run away from.